In Ten Words...
About Me/makes a bunch of throat clearing sounds
Well. I deleted my old bio thing, a while ago. I regret that; now there's nothing to fill up this empty space except this.
So! I joined a year ago, there's that. Never really contributed. I stayed in chat all the time; when high school rolled around, I quit Fig Hunter. I now find I have the time for it again. Let us CAUSE EVENTS TO TRANSPIRE.
Let me explain about myself.
I'm Arpetalicoco. Arp for short. In the physical plane, I'm a teenager. Filipino, 15 years old, 171 or so centimeters tall, ~50 kg, lethargic, and a bass or tenor. Never found out which. I've been described as a kind, optimistic, and crazy intuitive person, but I'm not sure about that. Maybe that's true. The rest of the time, I'm in a motivation slump. I'm an optimist partially because I can't function otherwise. I prefer diffusion as a way to meet new people, which extends into the chat room here. I used to be a lot more extroverted. But I've found over the past year that I've lost much of any assertiveness I may have had. I'm loathe to ask other people for things because I always think that their time is much more important than mine; that I'm inferior, basically. Confidence is an issue. I might've been scarred more than I'd like to admit from middle school and first year high school. As a result, I compensate by trying to be as kind as I can to others. It's all very draining, but it's ingrained in me now. I tend to overlook positives and overthink negatives. I'm fascinated by people and their relationships with others; combined with the apparent kindness I show and my practice of diffusion, I've sort of taken on the role of being an outside observer that occasionally steps in to help a friend, all the while watching, analyzing, et cetera. I don't know what I'm going to do with my life. I've heard tell that I should become a psychologist, but there are so many people smarter than me, better than me. . . I don't know. I make myriads of problems for myself besides these, but that'd take too long to list. Am I happier now than I was two years ago? . . Yes. I'd prefer reality than happiness out of ignorance. My main problem is probably that of motivation. Coupled with procrastination, I've managed the monumental achievement of accomplishing nothing whatsoever. Have a love affair with apathy and you've my mind. I don't feel stress very often. I don't feel motivated very often. I just slump. But encourage me, and I'll talk to you forever, probably. Or until I think you start hating me. I'm intensely curious, I'm somewhat intuitive, and I'll slap thighs with great gusto for days.
If I ever don't reply or talk to you or whatever, I apologize, sincerely and dearly. I've become afraid of people, I overthink even the smallest punctuation mark, and I'm probably just afraid that you dislike me, so I stopped talking to you so I don't bother you.
Spoiler for for Old, old bio. When I was younger.:
- !! Voelus
- !! Megabdi
- β Mania
- !! Data9795
- Mysterious Nerd
- david s
- !! StrawHatZach
- The Wadge
- !! SaviorSephiroth
- !! Grenburr