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Forum: Games most like Old!MARDEK?
david s
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david s 25 United States MelancholicCholeric ISFJ 621 1193C
Alright, if music and story don't matter to you, I can think of a little more to say here.

Unfairy Tales.

No download, it's an online flash RPG. The plot is pretty dry and far between, movement between towns is slow, there's a big, mostly empty world. Enemies get constantly more difficult as time goes on, better items are hard to get, long play time, leveling up isn't too incredibly hard. YOU CAN ONLY RECOVER FROM INJURIES AND LOST MP WITH POTIONS AND OTHER SUCH ITEMS OR SKILLS. No cathedral or healing spot or anything. Save anywhere.

The battle system is similar to MARDEK in some ways, it's sorta turn based, though differences in speed change the turns. I mean, of course the enemy will always attack you before you get a chance to move. There's really no clear explanation of the combat system stuff.

The one thing I can say I enjoyed about it was the interesting twist on who's good and evil.(I.e. the evil princesses are trying to destroy the monsters who live peacefully. Basically, you're fighting against all the 'good guys' of fairy tales.)

The graphics are fairly clear and to the point, and when it comes down to it there's not too much in terms of complexity in the combat system. Minimal customization.

Still, it *is* a game. That's about it.

How about Feudalism? Literally no plot, you just go and fight a lot. Character customization is an available option, no music to worry about(Annoying sound effects, though.) you can select an army of soldiers to do all the work while you sit back and do nothing. Some degree of crafting, though not much.

I recommend Feudalism 2, not 1, CERTAINLY not 3.

There were some other things I was thinking of, but I can't remember them at the moment... I hope this helps.
Forum: Games most like Old!MARDEK?
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david s 25 United States MelancholicCholeric ISFJ 621 1193C
I ran into that problem too, but then I found out that for that part you need to reconfigure your keys in the input part to accept things like ctrl and alt. Once you do that, it works. Then you can reconfigure it back once you've done that if you'd like, since you don't really need to do it again.(At least not for a while.)
Forum: Honestly I can't think of a good title
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david s 25 United States MelancholicCholeric ISFJ 621 1193C
Thank you, I was a little shaken up myself in typing it, but I'm trying to get to normal things when I can to help feel normal. I haven't been hit as hard as my parents, in good part because Frank and I weren't that close. I only ever talked to him once ever month or two, usually face to face, and he and I weren't particularly close as kids either. But he was still my brother, and I love him and miss him very much. The rest of the things are harder for me, in a way, because I can't change what has happened, but it's harder to handle what is happening and what's going to happen.
Forum: Games most like Old!MARDEK?
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david s 25 United States MelancholicCholeric ISFJ 621 1193C
Well I know this is probably stating the obvious, but if any of you haven't played Chrono Trigger yet, please drop everything and go play it. Years ago another Fig, I forget who but it was on OldFig, went through the painful process of giving me detailed instructions on how to download a SNES emulator and an emulated game: Chrono Trigger. Unfortunately I'm not good with computers, but luckily I managed to download it without problems, thanks to his careful instructions.(More recently a friend tried to help me download the sequel. This did not end well, and her spirit was crushed by my lack of computer skills.)

I am not tech savvy, and when I was a kid my parents forbade video games, along with the majority of cartoons, so we really never got into anything like that for the most part, so I don't know much about most gaming related stuff.

Like I said, though, I managed to download Chrono Trigger on an emulator. Played it. LOVED IT.

If you don't know what Chrono Trigger is, it's a 1995 JRPG. Classic adventure and whatnot. The plot starts off a little odd, the world is very interesting, though small, but it gets bigger as... layers, we'll call them... are added. The combat system is somewhat interesting, techniques are good, grinding isn't terribly hard and constant growth encourages grinding whenever you can manage it. One odd feature is that you can fight the final boss pretty soon in the game, but even if you go through the whole game with minimal grinding, the boss is really killer, so it's always better to wait.

There's really no customization of the characters(Except their names. Change 'Marle' to 'Nadia' to make the plot make less sense.) or skillset or anything, but the characters are very well developed at times and their backstories are fun. Not as detailed as MARDEK, but still good. The character related side-stories are what's really great, and you can build your party pretty well. Perhaps the greatest subtlety of the game is that you can do something small that would otherwise be meaningless, but it would change something for one of the NPC's. It doesn't seem like much, but changing NPC's is a very detailed thing, and you'll understand what I'm talking about better if you change the mind of a certain greedy mayor.

Lots of side quests. One more wonderful feature is the legendary soundtrack. There are pieces as short as 16 seconds that loop without getting boring. In fact, they're catchy tunes. Some pieces are only played once or twice, but they're so beautiful you want to listen to them for hours. I can't tell you how much of knife-edge mood was defined in Zeal in the one building by the music, only to be instantly, purely, and perfectly broken by the transition to a certain magical character's calming tune.

Also, uh, this game was the inspiration for a lot of Pseudo's stuff in MARDEK and whatnot.

I highly recommend Chrono Trigger to anyone who has, or hasn't played it. It's an awesome game.
Forum: Honestly I can't think of a good title
david s
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david s 25 United States MelancholicCholeric ISFJ 621 1193C
Sorry I haven't been posting much since the site came back up, some really heavy stuff's been going on lately and I've been trying to stay sane by escaping into my room for anime time whenever I possibly can.

That's basically what I'm posting about. That heavy stuff. Like, I think this is the most stressful time I've ever had in my life. It's not acute stress so much as chronic and long-lasting stress that I find unlikely to change for years. Life changing stress.

I'll start with some of the basics on this. Two weeks ago I just finished finals at my university. I only had 4 classes this semester, so it wasn't too much, but it's still stressful. One class, I knew I'd get a lower grade than everyone else, so I wasn't surprised with that. Another, I thought I might fail. Ended up with a C in it, so that's pretty good, given the circumstances.

Around this time Frank, my oldest brother, confirmed with solid proof that his girlfriend/babymomma was cheating on him and doing drugs. Mostly abusing prescription drugs, but also smoking some pot. He reported it to the police, but the police didn't even file a report and disposed of the pot on their own. He told the girlfriend's mother about the drugs, she said that this was a problem in the past and that girlfriend would sometimes pass out when she was supposed to be watching her son.(Son being my brother's son as well.) Girlfriend's mother said she'd suppose Frank in having a sort of intervention, but when the time came she coddled her child and was like "Oh but she's just a victim and doesn't need to change, you're being mean to her.". Girlfriend tried to kick Frank out of Frank's house, Frank said he'd stay. She asked if he was kicking her out, he said she could stay, she decided to leave.

They started a custody battle for the kid. While things were being worked on, he was allowed to have the kid for a while, but Frank's counselor said he should bring the baby back every night by a certain time as an act of good faith.

On Saturday the 9th, the day after I had my last two finals of the semester, we went to a small, regional amusement park with my parents, Frank and his little son. Frank was really stressed, he told us about how for that whole week since they broke up he was having nightmares about his son, Frankie, being taken from him and pulled into darkness. He had this nightmare multiple times already, in such a short time. A few months before he lost his job when the branch shut down, so he was also on unemployment.

His ex-girlfriend was making him pay for literally everything and wouldn't get a job, ate fast-food every day and spent hundreds of dollars every week on victoria's secret lingerie and clothing at Macy's. She weighed 250 lbs. and she was 5'2". I have *no* idea why he ever slept with her in the first place.

Anyway, we had a good day with Frank and Frankie at the amusement park, we gave Frank tips on how he could get people to do drug tests on his ex, and tried to help him for stuff in custody court. He went home after my other brother, me, my dad, Frank and Frankie posed together in a picture my mom took. Mom and dad said they'd be up the next day to help him clean up his house to make it look good for the custody stuff.

That night after dropping Frankie off at ex's house, where they talked about god knows what, Frank went to his house. Frank tried calling ex several times, but she didn't answer. He texted my mom and said "I love you mom. Get her tested." then he tried calling ex again. Apparently she answered and they talked about god knows what for about 5 minutes.

The next day when my parents went to his house to help clean, the door was locked and he wasn't responding to knocks. The dogs were barking, so my parents figured he was taking a nap. My dad found a path around the side of the house and went up to the back porch where he found my brother.

He must have been dead for some time, my dad said he was purple already. He shot himself in the head.

The police took a while investigating, my parents were utterly inconsolable. When my mom tried to call my cellphone, I noticed she called a moment too late, so when she called it went to voicemail just before I could answer it. The voicemail was strange, all it was was a sort of howling, like a dog almost, for about three seconds. I called my mom back to find out what was wrong, and she told me.

I called my other brother at work. Mother's day, working at a steakhouse buffet literally the busiest day of the year. I told the manager to put my brother on the phone, I told him what happened. When I told my brother he just paused, then he said he'd be right home. When he got back I was all shaken up, I hugged him, we cried a little. We called some people and told them what happened, my old teacher came by and talked to us for a while. My cousin, my aunt and my uncle drove up to Frank's house to pick my parents up, because there's no way they could drive for two hours in their condition. They also brought home Frank's dog and ex's dog, which she abandoned when she left Frank.

Time for grieving was very limited, because there was a duty. After first removing all the guns from his home and locking them up, which was no small feat, we went to court and received an emergency custody order for Frankie from the drug abusing mother. We got custody, and we took the baby home with us.

We took care of Frankie as dutifully as anyone can take care of a child. That Tuesday was his birthday. He turned 2, and we held a party for him.

Quite possibly one of the saddest things I will ever see in my life was that little baby looking at the door, pointing, then looking at you while pointing at the door saying "Dad?". You just smile and say "No, dad's not here right now".

Well, taking care of a kid gives you very little time for grieving, or really much of anything. We already had 5 dogs of our own, so adding 2 dogs and a child lead to some chaos. In addition we were trying to clean the house up. Thankfully we were able to lock up our guns in quick order, much to Frankie's dismay.(He loves guns. He calls them "Boom boom"s and he carries a toy gun whenever he can and he watches anything on TV with guns in it. Frank told us about this time Frankie watched a gun documentary for hours, completely ensnared.) But we managed to make things safe.

But our own mental states weren't doing so great. We had to take turns leaving the room and crying, we had to take turns watching the kid, my parents had to go to see a lawyer, to see Frank's counselor, everything.

After 4 days ex got a second judge to overturn the emergency custody and they came and took Frankie back with them.(We sent her dog along, too. Her dog was a rough little thing.)

The fight continues. We're still cleaning Frank's house out. He was in the Army, so he had tonnes of military stuff there. The house was rented, so we only have limited time to move things out. The Army sent people to help us with grieving and to get us to fill out paperwork on his life insurance.

It seems now that the lawyer has come to an agreement with the ex's lawyer that my family will get custody of the child every other weekend, and visitation on the Wednesday between.

A few days after the things started up, I got a call from a place I applied for a night job. One week after Frank's death I went to the orientation. I work part time stocking shelves at night now, working just shy of 40 hours a week. I make more than my surviving brother does now. But this stress is really nasty. I got sick starting the day of orientation, and I'm still not fully over it. The night after orientation I woke up in the middle of the night with a fever, I hallucinated that my blankets were a giant octopus and it was attacking me, and I was wrestling it. I remember thinking it was the hachibi(The anime I've been using to escape, no surprise, is Naruto Shippuden. Last time I got this sick I woke up with a fever and a headache, and I was asking why I was in so much pain in my head, and naturally I assumed it was because I have the Kyuubi trapped inside me.) and all the rest of the sickness has simply made work harder for me. Stress is destroying me. A new job, I don't like the company but I need a job and I need to try getting money for university, we're fighting for custody and my oldest brother killed himself.

We had a memorial ceremony for him, but he was cremated and he won't have his official funeral until the fall.

By the way, I mentioned in another post that our pug Patty died in February. She lived with him for over 15 years, most of his life, all of hers. He loved her more than he ever loved another dog, and I know she loved him more than any woman ever loved him, certainly more than ex did, if ex even can love. Patty was cremated too when she died. Their ashes are now mixed. Now they'll be together forever, and I'm sure Frank is glad for that.

I don't know who all is reading this, and I know many of you are atheist/agnostic, but if you pray, please pray for my family, especially my parents and my little nephew. I'm really sorry for dropping this all on you guys. I've been coping pretty well for the most part, trying to get back to doing my normal things, grieving a little. My other brother is just now getting to his venting, which is done through a lot of anger. My parents are getting better able to vent. My dad's eating again, my mom is able to do some normal things, but it's still just totally messed up. I'm mostly over the sickness, but after not being able to eat for three days, I'm still having trouble keeping food in. ON THE PLUS SIDE I DID LOSE WEIGHT. That's not actually such a good sign, but I could still stand to lose a few dozen pounds.
Forum: WHAT'D YOU DO OVER FIG BREAK, CLASS?
david s
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david s 25 United States MelancholicCholeric ISFJ 621 1193C
Well I did pretty much everything everyone else here did: I worked on improving drawing, dawdled on papers for my uni classes, watch metric excrementtonnes of anime, planted some vegetables in my garden with my dad, tried in vain to work on my tan, went to other sites for a bit and tried to stay in contact with figs any way I could.

Aside from those things, however, I scheduled for classes next semester, I got fired from my old job and I'm going in for a review process thing to get hired someplace else. The anime club I was VP of had elections, I ran for president, I lost, I'm VP again next year! I watched even more anime to compensate for my utter depression.

I've also fallen out of love for paleontology and geology.

Still haven't gotten around to writing stuff or reading stuff, aside from some manga I've read here and there.

Also, uh, pugs are still pugs, and I still have pugs.

I AM GLAD FIG IS BACK, I HOPE ARCHIVE IS BACK UP SOON! I MISSED YOU GUYS!
Forum: All This Gender Stuff is BS
david s
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david s 25 United States MelancholicCholeric ISFJ 621 1193C
I do think that gender identity is real, and I don't deny that, but what upsets me is that people do try to force themselves into labels for whatever reason.

Towards the end of your post you mentioned that transgender and non-binary people with dysphoria about their bodies is "less common than the teenagers might have you think". In this case, these teenagers are trying to place themselves in a category they don't really fit in. In a way it's almost as if they're trying to fit a different gender into their body while those who are 'genuinely' transgender are stuck with their gender in a different body.(I put the thingies around "genuinely" there because I can't comment on whether those teenagers are genuinely transgender or not. I do not experience life through their shoes and don't know where they've been. As such I'm using the word "genuinely" to make a distinction between those teens and 'genuinely' transgendered people, even though all parties involved may be genuinely transgendered. I'm simply making a distinction for the sake of discussion.)

I think that the importance is that people should avoid classifying themselves uncomfortably and be free to explore themselves. If someone is uncomfortable in their body, then they are uncomfortable in their body. I don't like that they're uncomfortable, but I don't think they should try to force themselves into their body. If they can get a sex change operation, and they want one, then they should get one. I won't judge them for it, and I don't think people should.

Don't get me wrong, I still have my personal preferences. I would rather not want to be in a relationship with someone who was born in a male body. I can't even classify why, I simply have my aesthetic and shallow preferences. However, if the rights of such a person are challenged, I would be more than willing to help that person defend their rights to individuality, freedom and self expression. I can only accept my own personal choices, such as my pickiness about relationships in relation to someone's birth sex, if I can also accept that other people also have equal right to their own pickiness, choices, lifestyle and identity.

I wrote this in a confusing way, I think, and I apologize for that. Since things are bound to be unclear, please comment before getting irate with me. There's probably some kind of misunderstanding.
Forum: All This Gender Stuff is BS
david s
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david s 25 United States MelancholicCholeric ISFJ 621 1193C
I'm not entirely sure I understand, but what I think you're saying is that people label themselves so that they can be a part of a community that will help resolves issues that are common among the individuals in it? At least, that's what I read out of that.

And that does make sense, actually, but I really wish people didn't have to do that. I can't understand why people have to be rejected for not being a part of the "normal in group". Forcing yourself into a group is almost like nationalism, where eventually you get to the point that "the will of the group" is all that matters to you, and you don't question the group's authority.(Godwin's Law. Think of the Nazi's and how the German people hardly questioned what was happening.)

I'd appreciate it if people celebrated their individuality more, and always understood that no system is perfect, and that it's okay to disagree with a set of guidelines, and you should always know that you'll never fit into a mold, and that's not only perfectly fine, but perfectly normal and perfectly perfect in every way. Because we're not made on an assembly line, we're all unique.

Uh... now I'm not sure this is so much a reply as a rambling, so I guess I should, uh... stop here. ._.
Forum: All This Gender Stuff is BS
david s
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david s 25 United States MelancholicCholeric ISFJ 621 1193C
I am so sick and tired of people saying "Oh I'm transgendered, but I'm something about blah blah blah". I'm sick of people saying they're metrosexual or something along those lines. I'm sick of people saying they're a this gender that gender whatever thing.

Before you get super pissed at what I just said and decide to yell at me via a silent-but-angrily-worded-post, please hear me out.

I'm not fed up with people that are atypical. I'm not fed up with people having their differences or expressing them.

What I'm fed up with is that people are trying to *label themselves into categories*. Gender is more than a binary option, more than trinary or umpteenbillionary. There are as many gender differences as there are stars in the sky.

Everyone is unique. Everyone is different. Can we *please* stop trying to classify people like this?

I don't like this system of classifying people because of how wrong it is to try to force people into a mold, any mold. If someone is atypical in even the slightest way, people will say "Oh, you're not this gender, you're that one" and the person tries to live up to that label.

If you label people, I think I'm what you call a "cis". My physical sex is male, I am attracted to women, I identify as me. I am me. I am not transgender, I am not tricycle, I am not hot bread, I am not Hideoyoshi, Crona, Haku, Grell or any other gender label. I am me. I like women, I like doing things that make me feel tough, I want to be a knight in shining armour who saves the princess and slays the dragon. I feel lonely since I don't have a girlfriend. I'm far more likely to talk to a girl than to a guy, I type differently when I'm sending messages to a girl.

Even though I do stereotypically male things, I do stereotypically female things, too. I have long hair, just beyond my shoulders, I like to flick my hair around, sometimes I wear it up in a bun, I make faces in the mirror and try to figure out what hair styles look the sexiest. I don't think that long hair looks good on a guy, but it sometimes makes me *feel* beautiful, and I like that. I watch fashion shows, I know who Timothy Gunn is, I know the names of more than three fashion designers/perfume makers/accessory designers.(Vera Wang, Estee Lauder, Ralph Lauren, Calvin and Klein, Prada, Louis Vuitton and others.) I watch say yes to the dress, I watch project runway. Not compulsively, but I watch them from time to time. I know more than six colours. I'm a sucker for romantic comedy. I think that romance is good, whether it's straight or gay. I like it when an anime I'm watching has hot guys about as much as when it has hot girls, though I dislike it when a show has nothing but one sex. I'm not unlikely to read/watch yaoi as readily as yuri.

Sometimes when no one is watching I'll dance by myself. Sometimes I'll sing songs I would never sing around my family. Sometimes I like to be a bit girly.

I can cook, I can bake to some extend, I'm trying to learn to sew properly.

I am a man, and I am very "secure", as they say, in my masculinity. I like guns, I like military stuff, I like eating meat. I'm good at science stuff, I don't like complex things.

I
AM
ME.

I'm not cis, not metro, not trans, not Polyphonica Crimson S. I am me. My gender is what you see. I am not some kind of label, to quote a friend "I am who I am, not what I am".

I don't like these labels. I think that people should be free to be who they really are without trying to classify themselves. I think people set themselves into boxes when they label themselves. Imagine someone who labels themselves as straight, but when they start having feelings for someone they didn't expect, they don't understand it because that's not "what straight people are attracted to". If you get rid of labels, you start freeing yourself.

Be who you are, don't be a label. Please?

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Sorry if this offends people with the wording and all that. I figure, though, that this will somehow get some activity going here. Gender is always such a hot topic.
Forum: Good night thred.
david s
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david s 25 United States MelancholicCholeric ISFJ 621 1193C
I started a really good game recently and I'm totally addicted to it. I really love the characters, they're just incredible, though the game mayn't really be the genre most of you may expect or anything, and I'd rather not get into it. But it's really interesting and I love following the backstories of the characters and learning about them.

I was recently having a big dilemma in school, and while it's far from over, it's really lessened, and I have a better idea of what I should be doing.

I'm beginning to make a few more friends at school and that's really helping me come out of my shell a bit.

Not everything is always perfect, but I think that things can always be better if you have time to yourself or spend time with your friends. I know the site has been going through a lot lately, but I still think that this community is a very cozy one.

I hope everyone has a good night, I should get to bed soon too, and sleep in late tomorrow. :3